it has been quite some time since my last blog entry. I could give many excuses for this such as finals. over watchful parents and many other such things but the fact is I have been forgetful and did not have my blog at the foremost of my mind. the experiences of this month however have been very informative to myself in the effort of accustoming myself to the idea of coming out to my parents and sibling. though several leading questions to the members of my family I had several in depth discussions on the topic, none of which im sure were comfortable to any of the party's involved due to the face that the topic of homosexuality or gay culture in itself is such a taboo topic more than just about any other when it comes to disillusions with over zealous Mormon family's.
first I was able to talk with my sister on a return trip from salt lake about one of her friends who she thinks is "not straight" after quite a long discussion I made the point that; even if he is gay, he is still the same person and nothing has changed, and if that she was really his friend then it shouldn't mater to her... she became quiet for quite a wile and then whispered I guess your right. but the way she said it grudgingly and didnt seem to believe what she was saying herself.
I also had a intense discussion with my father about it ( who I am convinced is going to be the biggest issue for me when I decide to come out/ if I decide to come out. he argued like the typical angry Mormon whos been indoctrinated from early in his life, and I argued for equal rights. my father knows Im not a republican but he still has issue with me not just taking whatever he says, and swallowing it down.
no matter how blunt I am I think that my family will just not choose to accept or think that its true till I come out and say it. but I will write more often now I can get some time to myself to write now.